Judging from the trail of destruction I leave behind, at least one person gets hurt whenever I deem someone as close. Perhaps I expect too much from people. Perhaps I've yet to learn how to treat people/friends properly. Perhaps both.
Which leaves me with the option I've always lived with: make acquaintances only, move on when things change. Don't need to expect too much from them... Good if they keep in touch. But better for them if they don't get bogged down with having to deal with you for extended periods of time. At least, till I learn how to treat and view people better.
Speaking of learning, this should be stuff I've learnt a decade or two ago? Is it just because of the background I grew up in? It's no one's fault really, but probably just a sad consequence of how I turned out broken like this.
I hope none of the next generations under my care will turn out to be like me now. I'd really detest that.